transition

always feel so homesick after semester break

feel terribly sad when I sat foot again at this metropolitan city again

no more comfort life that I get to enjoy at home

no more home cook food, nice bed, my novels, TV, teasing my brother, watching my parents quarrelling over trivial stuffs, even the stray dogs outside my house, I started to miss them too

omg....missing my goyang kaki life so much

staying at this room which I still not used to
feel so lonely yet I prefer no one disturb me at this moment

conflicting thoughts

no motivation to do my thesis which I should/ought to be doing

yet lazing here

typing non-sense

I guess I still not used to growing up

all those responsibilities and duties that I need to fulfil
the fact that I need to search for job, worry for recession & inflation
today's house pricing rate, loans
is all about money, money, money, money
yes, life has definitely become more materialistic and realistic
I cant hide under the protection of my parents' forever though I wish to
I am growing up and they are growing older
is my time to take care of them

we procrastinate but time does not
it is so discipline that it move consistently every second
witnessing everyone's growth
and all those living things on earth

no matter I want it or not

it is the stages of life, when we do what we should