mountains of reports

recently like to on9 after midnight, bad habit again. i really have a lot of bad habits. hehe

tones of reports are awaiting me. OMG!!
Someone can jz kindly lend me a helping hand , i think i soon will get reporting phobia. OK, may be say like this is too exaggerated , but i really cannot deny this possibility.

To be truth, i am not that kind of person who like to do works that need to concerns too much about detailing but since i was appointed to do this kind of task , i will jz have to accept the destiny and try my very best. Still not enjoying my duty at all , i think no one like to do reports either , if there is one who loves to , i really want to meet that person and give him or her a big compliment.

Keeps raining this few days , is quite troublesome because i always went back around dinner hour and that is the time when it rains cats and dogs.
My mood recently is just like the weather , moody and gloomy. i guess no one realise about this. Is not because i try to be cheerful in front of others or try to hide out true feelings. May be i just feel happier when i was around my friends or i just naturally try to be protective and defensive as deep under my heart i dun want to let others to find out the cause of my uneasiness.

Alright , i am now analysing my own behaviour already. haha. really dun knw what is going on with me. I am getting more and more abnormal , i mean my thinking lar.
Is this the side effect of the heavy downpour???
It is controlling and manipulating my mind, triggering the negative side of me. the passive heather who has hide herself too long in the deep core of my heart is rebelling and is fighting with the positive thinking heather.
Is it like the cartoon we always watch , there is an angel-figured like of me vs the devil-figured like of me. they are going to a battle , the winner will get the master key to control my mind.
So, whether i will continue to be like this passive thinker from time to time or back to become that happy-go-lucky heather? I wonder.
OK! This is another crazy thought again.

SO much for today rubbish talk.
feel better now i guess.
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